2 day im being a fat irresponsible piece of shit
I’m also a hare’s breath away from snapping at some of them
I’m tired of lgbt phobia and objectification
I often hear the comments ‘I don’t want to look like a dyke!!’ or ‘I heard she was a lesbian!!’
and
‘we need more guys in here, gay guys are great’
‘they’d be our best friends and we could go shopping’
aUGH I am SO TIRED OF THE DESIGNER GAY AND THE WHITE GIRLS WHO LOVE THEM/HUNT FOR THEM
beauty school is upsetting me a lot lately
not because of what we’re learning or anything, it is all fairly easy
but because of the students I attend with
they’re sweethearts in their own way, but they are so catty and mean to each other
not to mention painfully ignorant/uneducated on a ton of topics
every conversation i hear seems to be about boys, parties, or booze
It’s just really upsetting ok
that moment when you heat up food but it ends up being this awkward not hot not cold but you’re too fucking lazy to put it back in the microwave for a few more seconds
I wish that I could submit like, 3 decent and colored things a week. Colored sketches, lineart, lineart and flat color—general things like that
I struggle with submitting things on a regular schedule, which is kinda bad 4 an artist in terms of advertising and building a fanbase and stuff like that
But time on those things detract from time spent on bigger pieces and paintings
hnngh
obviously I should just find the will to draw as much as possible when I am home
I’m back to working on this one thing that has been my psuedo brain child for like almost a year now
It’s this thing called Sugar Rot, and I just really enjoy the concept of it. I’m always torn between whether or not to make it a comic or an RP group, so I’m doing both since RP groups always die out eventually. I’m using the RP group aspect as a catalyst since my characters and concepts grow best when they are actually in use and I am presently too absent-minded to make a standalone comic with an actual storyline
I miss a lot of my friends that I used to talk to and rp with all the time :’) but then I realize that I still dont have much time for most things and with my introversion i get spent easily
but then its like if i keep rolling like that id never talk to them again and aaaa
im getting to that point where im just gonna say screw it and start talking to all the friends i havent talked to in a while
